would it be helpful to watch youtube videos and try to play it in my head for her the same way i do with music if i dont have the energy to narrate to her directly, or is that too 'cheap' to work
Wait that's not a normal thing to do? Whenever i don't want to think about something i force it to go out of my mind until i can't think– wait no that's not normal is it
she doesnt really have interests of her own yet so she kinda just likes what i like bc its what i share with her. except for music we have different music tastes
Kei Wendt
Wait that's not a normal thing to do? Whenever i don't want to think about something i force it to go out of my mind until i can't think– wait no that's not normal is it
no, it's not normal to segment memories--it's something I did under extreme duress, and led to a lot of complications later on. Now, doing it NOT under extreme duress, I imagine, would have SIGNIFICANTLY less bad consequences, but I can't imagine it's a good idea regardless
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she doesnt really have interests of her own yet so she kinda just likes what i like bc its what i share with her. except for music we have different music tastes
Well that's good! As you consume more media and pay attention to her during it, she'll develop different tastes
blanka
no, it's not normal to segment memories--it's something I did under extreme duress, and led to a lot of complications later on. Now, doing it NOT under extreme duress, I imagine, would have SIGNIFICANTLY less bad consequences, but I can't imagine it's a good idea regardless
Blanka cannot STAND narrative/slow-paced media. She likes "rip and tear," which I also enjoy, but I like Tarkovsky movies and Kentucky Route Zero, which are very slow, thoughtful pieces, and she can't stand those
yeah I have similar problems. My opinions on things will change and I won't remember sharing a different opinion (I recommended one hairstyle out of a choice of 2 to my partner, 2 weeks go by, they lament not choosing the other one, I didn't remember suggesting a hairstyle at all), my tastes in food will dramatically change and I won't remember that they've done so, it's very frustrating
I haven't played splatoon but everything I've seen about it makes me think I'd love it
blanka
yeah I have similar problems. My opinions on things will change and I won't remember sharing a different opinion (I recommended one hairstyle out of a choice of 2 to my partner, 2 weeks go by, they lament not choosing the other one, I didn't remember suggesting a hairstyle at all), my tastes in food will dramatically change and I won't remember that they've done so, it's very frustrating
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You might find they develop similar interests to you but that's probably because they haven't been exposed to things you aren't interested in
Once they're comfortable you can let them explore outside of what you normally consume
youre telling me i have to consume a wide variety of media?!?!! im sooooo bad at watching shows and finishing games </3
2:36 AM
dont even get me started on reading
2:38 AM
should i start over evangelion from the beginning or can i just pick up where i left off and hope she has enough access to my memories to know whats going on
I'm trying to suggest that you try training yourself to force for longer and longer by increasing it in gradual increments, because it sounds like you are saying you can't force for very long
if you're trying to get to a far off destination, the first step won't get you there, and nor will the second, or the third... but if you're trying to figure out a way to jump straight to your destination in one move, you might be stood there a while. Or you could walk a step at a time, that would probably be faster.
3:15 AM
unfortunately I don't think there's a way to just be able to instantly focus for long periods if you aren't already capable of that
managed to get in about 12-13 minutes of focus today. we didnt talk much during it though, we were mostly just going through a couple different generated environments because i couldnt think of a topic of conversation. i couldnt feel her presence at all but notably her voice 'came from' where her body would be rather than the right side of my head
managed to get in about 12-13 minutes of focus today. we didnt talk much during it though, we were mostly just going through a couple different generated environments because i couldnt think of a topic of conversation. i couldnt feel her presence at all but notably her voice 'came from' where her body would be rather than the right side of my head
I think there's some truth to droning music helping focus in some fashion, at least for some people, but it's definitely not specific to tulpas
11:47 PM
I listen to a wide variety of ambient music when I need to buckle down on something with a lot of heavy abstract thinking involved
11:47 PM
And it helps
11:48 PM
but it's not magic, it's just something that blocks out background noise, and somewhat helps with intrusive thoughts (in the sense that it is thoughts unrelated to the current task)
It can def happen faster so don't be discouraged
At the same time, don't be discouraged if it doesn't happen faster
Just know that progress is progress
fully depends, taygete first spoke after like trying once a week for 3 weeks, but fully expecting it will take months will cause it to actually take months
